You know as a mom, I have prided myself with kind of taking things in a stride for the most part with the kids…. premature? No problem I can handle it. Meningitis? Sure no problem. C. Diff? Gross, but I can take care of it…. surgeries? Scopes? Biopsies? Weird blood work? Hospital admission? Ok let’s roll with the punches. I always always know that God is completely in control and I am so thankful.
And you know weird stuff arises and we just keep on going, knowing that He is the author of our story. I often tell myself that I don’t need to stress, don’t need to worry, don’t need to focus on the particular incident at hand…. God gives me such peace through so much of the craziness. But tonight? I am anxious and overwhelmed. You know when Sam was diagnosed with his immune deficiency and the doctors told us that he had a high risk for autoimmune disorders and cancer? I literally was hysterical weeping but then God met me where I was at. Now having three kiddos that are immunocompromised, those risks are tripled. That is a lot to take for my momma ❤️. Today I was saddened to hear of another immune compromised person who has passed away from an infection made worse by being immunocompromised. I have read this persons story and followed their illness…. this was a “normal” physically fit and active person who just in November was competing in track meets and has now passed away. I can’t seem to wrap my brain around how quickly this illness sapped his strength and ability to fight off infection
As I loved on my babies today I couldn’t help but think about this young life that ended too soon, from something that you and I could fight off without even batting an eye. To think that my children could face something similar….. I just can’t even fathom😢
These four babies are my greatest accomplishment. I am so very thankful that God chose me to be their momma…. but tonight I am overwhelmed with the “what if’s….” of the future .
Beautifully Blessed 