So I know that many of us are struggling, emotionally, financially, spiritually and in many other ways. In these crazy times it is easy to get wrapped up in the news and social media. ITs easy to get focused on the “I can’t……” it’s east to think back several months and get sad, angry, frustrated, anxious, depressed……..
I have been blessed to have never experienced anxiety before. But several weeks ago I began to experience anxiety. I became fixated on going to work and what happens if I brought COVID19 home to my family. I became fixated on the fact that I didn’t feel adequately protected, fixated on every little sniffle, cough, sneeze that I heard. My oldest asked if I thought that he would die if he got it….. that tore my heart to pieces. When you are a parent of immunocompromised kids and you work in the medical field, their are thoughts in the back of my mind a lot about what happens if I accidentally bring this particular germ home to my kids…. almost all of the time it is a fleeting thought as I always remind myself that GOD’S GOT THIS! In all of the situations that I face. But COVID19 has been different for me.
I struggled for a couple days, was unable to sleep, was crying a lot. And then I remembered the God that I serve has promised to be with me, has promised to walk with me through this life. And then and there I began to ask Him to show up…… to meet me where I was at and to reveal Himself to me each time that I became overwhelmed. And boy has He…….. sure if you look at some of this you can say it’s a coincidence…… but I know 100% that He is the reason for all of it…..
In the last several weeks, we have been given some groceries, clothing for Sophia and I, our nurse brought face masks for Preston and Paisley, a friend from home made me a couple of masks and I was slain sent some headbands, and I also received some from people here in NC. So now we all have them in case of an emergency and we need to leave. One of my coworkers bought our whole department face protection so we each have our own now. We have been loaned an iPad to help with all this on line schooling.
Over the last several weeks Matt and I have been looking for laundry sanitizer and haven’t been able to locate it for more than a month. This last week I began to get anxious about running out and not having a good way to get the germs out of my scrubs and of Matt’s clothes and that my family would get sick. I mentioned it to a couple of people and they began looking for it for me. No one had any luck…… I said ok God , help please! I was helping a local business that has made and donated more than 1000 masks! And I mentioned to them that I was in need of the sanitizer, they shared my need and people began bringing the sanitizer to them. Not only do I have enough for us, but I can share…….between two other nurses, a tech who works in the hospital and a police officer within my family we all are out working in the community. Again some may think that God didn’t have anything to do with this, but I know He met the need with His people. I know that people who don’t know me at all donated to me and didn’t charge me. That is a God thing.
I know COVID19 has been so destructive and hard. But there has been a total change in people. Families get to be together more, more quality time,more puzzles games and crafts, more family dinners and movies together. More kindness and compassion in general. More generosity and creativity. To some they may try to attribute all of this to something other than God but I know that He is the reason for the goodness coming out of this crazy. I have also been so excited to see and hear about the prayer vigils around the world. Christians around the world have been mobilized to help others and I am so amazed at what God’s people can do
I encourage you that if you are struggling in this time, that you ask Him to show up and move out of the way so He can move. I promise no matter what God will meet you where you are, you just have to ask and believe.
Beautifully Blessed 