Tag: God

But GOD

Guys yesterday I couldn’t move! Left side pointer finger and left side big toe was all I could move if I concentrated super hard and worked hard. BUT GOD!!!! Look at this!!!! I am claiming for a miracle healing overnight! I NEED to be home with my family! My God is able! He can do exceedingly abundantly about all that we ask. And tonight I am watching it happen with my own eyes! I will eventually share more of this week as I wrap my brain around the trauma and emotion and loss of control. Since I couldn’t move I was listening to elevation worship almost continuously except when sick and headache. The song about seeing a victory And God Never failing was basically on repeat …… this guys! This is what My God did this evening! Agree with me pray with me, God can do this!!!!

When we get into these hard places it is so incredibly important to continue to focus on Him, He has already won the battle that we are in. He already knows the outcome, He already has each breath planned out. I know that right now I am hurting, and overwhelmed and a little bit scared. I don’t know how this all plays out. But you know Who does? My God! I know that I know that I know that we will be ok. God will take care of us regardless of how this plays out.

Up in a chair!
Moving my hand!!!! God is so so good!

My husband….

This update won’t be all inclusive as I am only able to use my right hand but I just have to share a little about this week. Sadly after my “day” surgery I have developed left sided weakness and am unable to use my left side. I can’t begin to tell you what a humbling experience it is to not be able to rollover sit up, go to a toilet, brush my hair,etc by yourself. But guys my husband was truly my night in shining armor this week. I don’t think I have wrapped my brain around this being the way things are right now…. but the first night? Was the worst night of my life. Terrifying to say the least. And Matthew was amazing. Constantly caring and supporting me. I am sure I wasn’t nice or appreciative as I should have been. I still can’t believe that he had to wash my face for me or move my pillows or help me move my hips….. but this guy? Totally showed up and showed me that God is still in control of my body and extremities even if it is through others. Thank you will never be enough for what and how you have loved me during this scary week. I know that God has big plans and that the waiting is hard but we will get there. #Godisbigger #Godsgotthis
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Trying to be Joyful

Trying to be joyful in the journey is certainly a little rough today. Still not functioning like I need to….. so very thankful for lots of love, support, prayers and knowledge from so many. The way this has gone is so unexpected. I never ever thought that this was even a possibility. I knew I would have some pain, knew I would not be able to lift some things, and struggle with neck movement for a little while. I never ever thought I would lose the function of my left side, never thought I wouldn’t be able to brush my hair or teeth, never thought I wouldn’t be able to see my kids for an unknown period of time. Social media can be a detriment but right now for me the messages people have been sending have been such a blessing….

. #Godsgotthis #Godisbigger

Not the way I had planned

Unfortunately I did not head home yesterday as I had hoped. After surgery I began vomiting wind subsequently lost feeling and sensation in my left side. Currently I am I unable to move my left side, unable to sit up unassisted, unable to stand. Surgeon is unsure of what is going on. But my God knows and He is with me in this battle.

He writes the Script Every. Single. Day!

So glad and so very thankful that He writes the script….. Each moment of EVERY. SINGLE. DAY! Sometimes our situations get overwhelming and scary, sometimes we don’t like the next step….. But remembering who is the writer of your story takes control of your heart and mind to keep running towards your goal at the end of this life

6 Reasons why you should trust God:

1) He knows you by name Isaiah 43:1

2)He will fight for you Exodus 14:14

3) He thinks about you Psalms 139:17

4) He has plans for you Jeremiah 29:11

5) He is your refuge Psalms 62:6-8

6) He is always with you Matthew 28:20

Not enough…

You have a roof over your head, right?

But it’s not enough. You want something bigger, newer, fancier

You have a job?

But it’s not enough. You want more money, more appreciation. To be better fulfilled.

You’re alive?

But it’s not enough. You want to be thinner? Bigger? Stronger? Prettier? More handsome?

You have a vehicle that gets you from point A to point B?

But it’s not enough. You want newer, fancier, faster.

You have a spouse?

But it’s not enough. You want him/her to love you more. Appreciate you more. Encourage and support you more?

You live in a democracy with more freedom than many people in most of the world.

But it’s not enough. You want a different government. A different set of laws. You want more freedom for things you want, and less freedom for the things others want.

You have the option to hear His Word and learn more about the Lord….

But it’s not enough…. there are too many gossips at the church so you don’t want to go there. You want to sleep in on the weekend. You can’t understand the Bible easily.

You could have no job, no spouse, no home, no children, no car, no food, no freedom to worship. I think sometimes we get caught up with always wanting more. Wanting more blessings. But God is MORE! He has given and blessed us so much, but maybe the things we are struggling with desiring are growing us to a new place. Drawing us closer to Him. Sure it is ok to ask God for things, but are you also thanking Him? Praising Him? He gave you eternity with Him! That is beyond the greatest worldly desire you have.

Guys! We are so so blessed! God has poured into us so much. I myself have struggled these last weeks with the craziness of politics. The uncertainty of the future. And as I became overwhelmed I was reminded… God is more than enough! My salvation? More than enough blessing that I don’t deserve.

More than enough in my home, in my marriage, in the lives of my family and friends.

More than enough in my job, in my friends, in the health of my family.

More than enough in my country. More than enough in the uncertainty of my country. More than enough in the government. More than enough for yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I don’t know what tomorrow holds but I know WHO holds tomorrow. Lean into Him, lean into His Word. He knows each need, each fear, each desire. Let Him in to those places of uncertainty, disappointment, sadness and fear. He wants ALL of it, let Him take it from you, let Him carry you through. He is more than enough! Let Him come to you

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#SaveTheBabies

As a child I dreamed of growing up and becoming a nurse, of becoming a mom. In my career as a nurse I have worked in the pediatric population mostly, but have also done labor and delivery, mother baby, nursery and some special care. What a privilege it has been to be a part of the first moments of life on earth. 2020 has taken so much joy out of caring for people. And oh am I tired. But this week as I was feeling defeated with the incredible hatred and selfishness in our world, God gently reminded me that He came for all of us. Even those people that are hurting my soul. He reminded me that I needed to worship through the storm. And so the other morning as I left work I just began to pray and sing at the top of my lungs. Thanking God for allowing me to be here, for the opportunities that I have to love on ALL of God’s people. And throughout the day yesterday I kept hearing that I was created for such a time as this…..

Last night as Judge Amy became Justice Amy I realized again how we are chosen for these days, these moments. That our purpose is great! That His calling on our life is incredible and that we often don’t know where following His lead will take us. I am praying for Justice Amy and her family. For a hedge of protection around her and all her loved ones. That God will use her to change this world for His glory!

Oh my goodness guys! There is nothing more incredible than leading someone to Christ! It is such an amazing privilege. I have been asking God to give me boldness, compassion and wisdom to be able to lead anyone that I come in contact with to Him. Imagine my joy last night when my sweet 7 year old came and asked me to talk to her about it and then asked me to help her ask Jesus into her heart!!!!! Guys! What an amazing gift He gave me last night. Praying the salvation prayer with my sweet PJ! I am just giddy with excitement and joy of knowing that she has chosen Him forever 😍 Joy unspeakable joy!!!!

Thanking God for saving the babies!

This sweet baby gave her heart to Jesus last night

Now what?

So here I am a nearly forty year old looking desperately for what God would have me to do. I mean I know He has called me to be a mom and He has blessed me with five kiddos (4 here on earth and the one that I can’t wait to meet in heaven), I know He has called me to be a wife and a nurse as well. But if I am being honest I want God to give me this step by step play book. I want God to give me a glimpse of what my story will be. I want God to show me how my story will lead others to Him.

When I said “my story for His glory” I want to see His plan and I want to know the ending even though I am only in the middle. God hasn’t called us to know the ending. He has called us to follow His lead and His guidance. So as we are muddling our way through the craziness of 2020, are you constantly telling Him to use you for His glory? Are you telling Him that you are willing and able to be used greatly by Him?

I urge you to keep seeking His will and guidance for each step you take. 2020 has shown us how ugly and crazy things in this world 🌎 can be. But are we showing 2020 how amazing the God of the universe is? Are we allowing Him to use us for His glory? Today ask Him to use you in mighty ways! Ask Him to change the world using you! Ask Him for each encounter you have on this earth to be one that leads others to Him.

There was an old song that I used to listen to called Speak to Me Lord by Rebecca St. James. And we should all be living in that place. Asking God to speak to us in every moment, in every decision, in every circumstance. We should be saying Hey God here I am ! I am yours! Now what can I do to serve you and to bring others to know you?

My story for His Glory

I am participating in a women’s bible study right now that is on line. The study we are doing is called the struggle is real.

And oh boy is it! This study is having us dig deep into our pasts and think about how our pasts affect how we live out our lives. Do you have a colorful past? Shame? Guilt? Embarrassment? Heartbreak? Are there things in your past that cause you to have walls up? To block people from getting close to you? Are you afraid to let people see the real you?

God’s Word is ready and waiting for you. Ready to break those walls down and build you up to the person He created you to be.

Sure I know God has forgiven me, and that He loves ME enough to send Jesus for me! But have you realized that for yourself? Do you grasp the way He loves you? I cannot even fathom loving someone so much that I would send my only child to suffer and die for them. Can you? Does your heart burst with the joy of knowing that no matter what today brings God is still God and He is bigger than everything we will ever face?

God has got you! In the palm of His hand. It doesn’t matter what happened today, yesterday, last month, last year or 20 years ago. Give it to Him, allow Him to break off those walls of pain, shame and regret. Allow Him to build you into the person that He created you for! There is no time like the present! He loves you and is calling you by name! Do you need someone to pray with you to hear your heart? Reach out! I would love to pray you through your struggle! God loves you so so much! He is waiting for you