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Danay Sierra

The news article about our sweet Danay

https://www.wral.com/family-and-friends-gather-to-mourn-10-year-old-killed-by-suspected-drunk-driver/19632953/?fbclid=IwAR0LHY9DmDP__M3Rm3XkLExrPFhnGCAnMPW_mhiV8zgbAoY1cw8L5D3Dofc#.YHufkexFHDU.facebook

I still can’t wrap my brain around this horrible nightmare. Our precious girl taken from us far too soon. Even though our hearts are absolutely shattered it is amazing to see how God is with us right now. The love we have been receiving has been overwhelming, the support from our church, other believers, friends, family, our community and even strangers has been awe inspiring. Please be praying. These days, weeks, months and years ahead are going to have a massive hole in them…. Our precious Danay was such an incredible ray of sunshine. Oh to hear her again and and have all the cousins giggling and playing together 💔

The Blessing of music

One of my faves. Just got meds and vitals. Awakened to this… what a blessing. This is one of my absolute favorite songs… I am so thankful that I can continue to listen to worship music continuously.

So often when we are in a struggle we focus on the struggle and take our eyes off of Him. I feel like God tries so hard to get our attention and sometimes we miss all of His nudges…. My best friend told me when this all started (realizing that I was going to need surgery) that God was trying to tell me to slow down. That I was needing to get my priorities back in line with His will.

THIS IS SO HARD! I have basically been stopped in my tracks, I can’t care for myself or anyone else for that matter. I can’t work too much or do too much. I can’t do anything for or by myself. But what I can do is get my focus back on Him, and allow Him to get all of my priorities back on Him. So here I am trying so desperately to refocus my life. Please don’t be too busy for Him , to hear His still small voice. He has so much for us….. HE wants to give us so much

Bathroom

Took some steps on my own with walker and two PT/OT people. My goal was the bathroom..,, so close but yet SO FAR AWAY 🤪 I almost made it. Sadly they said still not safe or strong enough to do it but progress is progress. Here’s where I want to go tomorrow….. the bathroom…. it’s so close…… referral sent for rehab. They said usually 7-14 days….. feels like an eternity still before I can go home….. please keep praying. I need them and so does my family.

My day surgery with potential one overnight has turned into such a nightmare. I am so tired and so desperately want to be home. I know that He is here with me but I just want to go home. Just want to take a shower…. Just want to hug and love in my family.

I don’t own this song or the lyrics…. But they speak so deeply to me.

Yes I will, lift You high in the lowest valley
Yes I will, bless Your name
Oh, yes I will, sing for joy when my heart is heavy
All my days, oh yes I willI count on one thing
The same God that never fails
Will not fail me now
You won’t fail me now
In the waiting
The same God who’s never late
Is working all things out
Is working all things out

My God is Bigger!

Things are going so slowly. I am here waiting and believing for a miracle. Waiting for God to give me my strength and sensation back. Waiting for the doctors to come in and be shocked at my God performing this miraculous healing.

I know that all of this will be ok. I know that I am still God’s child, and that He will care for me no matter what. But I want to know that I will walk again, that I will be able to write again, that I will cook, and drive and snuggle with my babies…. I want all of this so much.

My husband….

This update won’t be all inclusive as I am only able to use my right hand but I just have to share a little about this week. Sadly after my “day” surgery I have developed left sided weakness and am unable to use my left side. I can’t begin to tell you what a humbling experience it is to not be able to rollover sit up, go to a toilet, brush my hair,etc by yourself. But guys my husband was truly my night in shining armor this week. I don’t think I have wrapped my brain around this being the way things are right now…. but the first night? Was the worst night of my life. Terrifying to say the least. And Matthew was amazing. Constantly caring and supporting me. I am sure I wasn’t nice or appreciative as I should have been. I still can’t believe that he had to wash my face for me or move my pillows or help me move my hips….. but this guy? Totally showed up and showed me that God is still in control of my body and extremities even if it is through others. Thank you will never be enough for what and how you have loved me during this scary week. I know that God has big plans and that the waiting is hard but we will get there. #Godisbigger #Godsgotthis
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Trying to be Joyful

Trying to be joyful in the journey is certainly a little rough today. Still not functioning like I need to….. so very thankful for lots of love, support, prayers and knowledge from so many. The way this has gone is so unexpected. I never ever thought that this was even a possibility. I knew I would have some pain, knew I would not be able to lift some things, and struggle with neck movement for a little while. I never ever thought I would lose the function of my left side, never thought I wouldn’t be able to brush my hair or teeth, never thought I wouldn’t be able to see my kids for an unknown period of time. Social media can be a detriment but right now for me the messages people have been sending have been such a blessing….

. #Godsgotthis #Godisbigger

Not the way I had planned

Unfortunately I did not head home yesterday as I had hoped. After surgery I began vomiting wind subsequently lost feeling and sensation in my left side. Currently I am I unable to move my left side, unable to sit up unassisted, unable to stand. Surgeon is unsure of what is going on. But my God knows and He is with me in this battle.

Prayers please

Prayer request**

After a recent MRI I learned the severity of the issues going on with my cervical spine. I saw a neurosurgeon about six weeks ago who stated that surgery was needed but that it didn’t need to be done at that time. He gave me a list of things to be mindful of and to report to him as that would mean progression of the damage to my actual spinal cord , over the last couple weeks things started getting worse. This week neurosurgeon has said that my surgery is now urgent/emergent and is concerned that there may be permanent damage to some of my nerves. So on march 24th I will be going in to have two cervical discs replaced with synthetic discs, numerous bone spurs removed from the spinal cord and the potential of two further cervical discs requiring fusion. Please be praying as we navigate this course, we are so thankful to be surrounded and loved by so many. We are so thankful for the village God has given us to navigate this life. Prayers for lots of things: for my surgical team, for the recovery process, for the people who are stepping in to help us, for our finances as I will be several months without a pay check,for my family as things are going to be different for a while, and for my momma heart as I have to step back from all the things with my kids and allow someone else to do them for me. God always reveals himself to me in trying times and I am thankful for His love and calm that He is giving me as I navigate this road with Him as the driver.

My story for His Glory

I am participating in a women’s bible study right now that is on line. The study we are doing is called the struggle is real.

And oh boy is it! This study is having us dig deep into our pasts and think about how our pasts affect how we live out our lives. Do you have a colorful past? Shame? Guilt? Embarrassment? Heartbreak? Are there things in your past that cause you to have walls up? To block people from getting close to you? Are you afraid to let people see the real you?

God’s Word is ready and waiting for you. Ready to break those walls down and build you up to the person He created you to be.

Sure I know God has forgiven me, and that He loves ME enough to send Jesus for me! But have you realized that for yourself? Do you grasp the way He loves you? I cannot even fathom loving someone so much that I would send my only child to suffer and die for them. Can you? Does your heart burst with the joy of knowing that no matter what today brings God is still God and He is bigger than everything we will ever face?

God has got you! In the palm of His hand. It doesn’t matter what happened today, yesterday, last month, last year or 20 years ago. Give it to Him, allow Him to break off those walls of pain, shame and regret. Allow Him to build you into the person that He created you for! There is no time like the present! He loves you and is calling you by name! Do you need someone to pray with you to hear your heart? Reach out! I would love to pray you through your struggle! God loves you so so much! He is waiting for you